Flash back Friday…to when I actually wrote blog posts.
How sweet is this picture? Radical. 80’s style.
I missed you guys!!! I have absolutely no excuses regarding my absence from blog-ville. Only that I’ve been a black/white girl a lot of my life. All or nothing. In or out. What does this mean? It means that if I set out to do something my brain automatically takes it to an extreme.
“I just had a really good marathon training run. I think this means I should run an ultra. And not a 50 mile ultra, but 100…no a 200 mile race. Trail race. yeah. That’s what I’m doing.” To be clear: I never ran a 200 mile Ultra. Never say never, except for right now. NEVER.
“4 years of college is good, so 5 is better and let’s tack on an additional 3 of law school just for the heeeeey of it.” This I actually did. And have the student loans to prove it. JOY!
“I love animals, and animals love me. There are so many animals that need homes. I should adopt some. Maybe all of them.” Thank goodness The Man has a level head on his broad shoulders, otherwise I’d be living like Ace Ventura right now.
“Cookies are good. Cake is good. Chocolate is good. So I should eat only cookies, cake, and chocolate. For every meal.” This happens less frequently now, but there was a time in college when I was known to subsist on one food for months at a time. Ask my Mom about the “Cream of Wheat Phase” in college. I stand by that decision.
“I love to read blogs. I should blog. I should blog a lot. I should blog three times a day.” Yeah, obviously this didn’t pan out as I planned.
My point, dear reader? That this sort of black and white thinking can lead us down the proverbial “rabbit hole”. My hopes and goals always begin with the best of intentions, but the execution of said hopes and goals is an entirely different ball game. I think many high achievers–whether they be athletes, professional, parents, etc, are so susceptible to this mode of thinking because good is great, but great is better.
The last two years have been such a wonderful lesson in priorities, self-exploration, self-worth, and goal-setting for me. I’ve learned to step back and realize that: a) “being perfect” doesn’t exist, and attempts to reach perfection are just going to end up in hurt and disappointment; b) black and white thinking only hurts my ultimate desires and goals; c) stepping back, realizing I can’t do everything and instead prioritizing and doing my best in that moment is enough. Always has been, always will be.
So I’ll see you again. Hopefully more frequently than not, and hopefully with fun and exciting news once in a while. It won’t be perfect, but it will be ME…and that’ s more than enough.